One baffling fact I’ve discovered…
When I say,
“Lord God, I give you my whole heart!, take every bit of it.”
I lie.
In reality, part of me is asking God to do a real deep work,
which is great and should be commended.
But, another part of me is saying
“Yeah God, I said that, but what I meant was
you can only have this much of me.”
This comforts and disturbs me.
b/c He is so gentle not to take my prayers so seriously
that it supersedes my true desires
that might cripple me.
But it also speaks of how much I truly need His grace.
Collision of Kingdoms 