Like the dude who has been stuck by lightning several times and now runs inside at any sign of a storm, I’ve been asking for God to grow me in the fear of Him. Weird thing is as much as I would like to wrestle all night like Jacob or collapse like Isaiah the reverence and fear are hitting me in waves and causing a strange reaction in my soul even without the experience that I thought I wanted. Feel myself trembling inside as I know He is close, even now.