inward wandering

What am I going to eat today? I need to make coffee? How much money do I have? Is it cold outside? I need a new jacket? No, I don’t. I need to save my money. What”s on TV tonight? What can I watch? Who can I hang out with tonight? I wonder what they think of me? I can’t wait to spend time with God. He makes me feel so good. I have to go to work today though. I wish I didn’t. I wish I could work on my art, or maybe read some books and go to the gym. I need to get to the gym. I love reading. And I love watching movies. I can’t stand what’s happening with the presidential election right now. Maybe I should post something on Facebook about it. I wonder what people will think. I should post what people will like and not be offended by. I don’t want them to think I care too much and yet I do so I have to say something. I… I… I… me… me… me.

vs.

Thank you, Lord, for taking care of me today so that I can care for others. Lord, what a wonderful gift that I get to see the weekend crew at work today. I wonder how C is doing with his loss. I can’t wait to see how J liked the thing I gave him. I’m so thankful that A called me yesterday concerned about R. How can I pray for B today. I feel like you’ve placed him on my heart this morning. Lord, thank you for letting me see L last night. It was amazing that I’ve talked with her about 3 time in the past 5 years and yet when I heard her voice for 3 seconds last night I recognized her without seeing her face. Amazing. I wonder how many other people from time past I could recognize their voices. People are amazing, Lord. Thank you for my family. Keep them today. Help me listen to them and let my words be in line with what you’re saying. Help me to be a listener in general today. Help me be kind to folks.

Lord, help us all not be so trapped by our inward bondage of concern for our selves that we miss the point of our lives- to Love you and to Love others. It doesn’t matter all that much how I’m percieved. It matters what I do for others. Help me to be healthy enough and smart enough to care for the people around me. In fact, make me damn good at it. Take us out of the trap of inward wandering.

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4 thoughts on “inward wandering

    1. Thanks for the encouragment, you guys. I try not the write for responses, for that just leads me to bad places where I let myself be swayed. But, I did just realize that you guys who prescribe to my blog get one of the first drafts of my posts. Which means you probably have a hard time reading them. I’m gunna try and fix that for you and do more editing before I post. Love you guys! May you percieve the Lord’s nearness today.

    1. Thanks for the encouragment, you guys. I try not the write for responses, for that just leads me to bad places where I let myself be swayed. But, I did just realize that you guys who prescribe to my blog get one of the first drafts of my posts. Which means you probably have a hard time reading them. I’m gunna try and fix that for you and do more editing before I post. Love you guys! May you percieve the Lord’s nearness today

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