Pursuit of the Holy

The winds rage
As the determined press in
Seeking the eye of the storm
False convictions knock us down
Demanding we submit to the religion of the day
For when men chose to use God as their means of demand
They do not back down
Even when they argue with God

So few even know that a deeper place exist
Beyond the ease of the piety of men
Beyond the choice to put on a suit
The is blood has been spilled for a greater
More meaningful habitation
A place of miracles and open visions
A place of encounter with the Living God

If I told you that this place was available to you
Would you pursue it?
Would you take my words to heart?

From Compartment to Fulfillment (Updated*)

One of the more difficult facets about coming out of an organized and human sustained church environment is transitioning into a life more dependent baggageon relationship with God and with the organic group of people that God has strategically placed us in.

When I received the revelation that God was calling me out of the traditional prescribed organization and into a spiritual family, I was a little shocked and heart broken. I had placed all my focus on living a certain way and working towards goals that, with a simple revelation from the Lord, changed instantly. I felt gypped. I came to the hard realization that I had wasted years of my life. The group that I had given blood, sweat, and tears for fundamentally disowned me and seemingly forgot about me. I found out that when relationships are built on common vision and doctrines instead of God’s relational bond they cannot and will not last (pain and hardship often accompany these). As much as I would want to make these relationships work, they would not. They were not being held together by God’s grace.

I’ve learned through this heartache that God is most concerned with the task of building a Kingdom, not making us “happy” socially. When I stepped far enough away I realized that there was a strong “in or out” mentality, one that was cultish in nature and one that worked against the heart of the Great Commission, the kind of Love that God had been attempting to develop in my heart.  Despite my best of efforts during my time in traditional American Christianity, everything seemed to work in opposition to the gentle guidance of the Spirit. It is as if something was wrong… and it was.

Continue reading “From Compartment to Fulfillment (Updated*)”

Devoted: Transfigure March 31, 2010

Matthew 17:1-9 (The Message)

1-3 Six days later, three of them saw that glory. Jesus took Peter and the brothers, James and John, and led them up a high mountain. His appearance changed from the inside out, right before their eyes. Sunlight poured from his face. His clothes were filled with light. Then they realized that Moses and Elijah were also there in deep conversation with him.

4Peter broke in, “Master, this is a great moment! What would you think if I built three memorials here on the mountain—one for you, one for Moses, one for Elijah?”

5While he was going on like this, babbling, a light-radiant cloud enveloped them, and sounding from deep in the cloud a voice: “This is my Son, marked by my love, focus of my delight. Listen to him.”

6-8When the disciples heard it, they fell flat on their faces, scared to death. But Jesus came over and touched them. “Don’t be afraid.” When they opened their eyes and looked around all they saw was Jesus, only Jesus.

9Coming down the mountain, Jesus swore them to secrecy. “Don’t breathe a word of what you’ve seen. After the Son of Man is raised from the dead, you are free to talk.”

Would do you think Peter, James, and John talked about as they came down the mountain after Jesus transfigured? Maybe they needed to change their tightie whities? Maybe they were pale and fear-struck with eyes wide open? If I were there, I might have asked Peter, “What were you saying? Can’t you keep your mouth shut for two minutes?” Nevertheless, the same bearded Jesus, who the disciples had been following, transformed before their very eyes and turned into a human light bulb. Words as loud as a train came from Heaven. But how did the disciples get to this place with Jesus? Is this a place Jesus would be willing to take us now? It all depends. Continue reading “Devoted: Transfigure March 31, 2010”

Flooding the Thrown Room ~ Feb. 2009

A few years ago a prophetess visited our church from Italy. She said that she had a word from the Lord that “we had lifted up many prayers to God.”

Until recently I was not encouraged by this word. I thought it was kind of vain. But recently I realized that if God alter-of-insense2knew how much we asked of Him that this must be an honorable thing.

To ask of God is to need God. I want to need God. I want God to be needed.

Thinking about what James says lately also has encouraged me. James says by the Holy Spirit that, “You do not have because you do not ask God.(James 4:2)” So now I realize since my prayers are being heard I will flood the throne of Heaven beseeching God for all that He might desire. I do not want one stone to be left unturned if by my faith God can change this world.

So Lord help me hear you so I agree with you. By the Blood of Jesus.

At the Helm ~ Reflecting on Leadership

There is a scale of leadership style I envision; on this scale most of us sit somewhere between  the two ends, and at times we swing back and forth according to needs. The two ends are dependance upon themselves, and dependance on others. Good leaders work in a balance between the two swinging back and forth, ebbing and flowing according to the terrain that they tread.

For me I just entered a season where holding on to the proverbial helm is difficult. I am seeing that the seas are getting rockier. I’ve asked my hands to be tied to the helm and for others to take down the sails. In this ship, during this season, I need my crew.

Call it weakness if you want. We just need to make it through the night. And when we do, God will get glory.

Draw Me Out ~ Meditation

James 4:3-5

3 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.

4 You adulterous people, don’t you know that friendship with the world means enmity against God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. 5 Or do you think Scripture says without reason the spirit he caused to dwell in us envies intensely?


General Meditation:

As humans all we do in God is filtered through our us-ness. Even some of the most magnificent supernatural encounters are interpreted by our own perspectives. There is simply no getting away from the prayer and the heart of the person praying.

Many people are overly aware of their motives when praying keeping them petrified of asking anything of God. To say that your motives don’t matter would be a lie. James makes this point with a little kick in the pants, calling us adulterers for our division.

From my experience with new testament use of the word world I recognize that the term “the world” refers to the cosmos or the present order of things. For example Jesus came preaching His kingdom, His cosmos, as opposed to the way the prince of the power of the air has been ruling his cosmos.

These passages speak of the way effective prayer is hinged on our hearts connection to the Father. If we are living purely for Him we can expect all our prayers to be answered. Of we are divided between the two cosmos we can expect there to be a disconnect between us and a solid prayer life.

The last statment of the text is a revealing one. “The spirit he caused to dwell in us envies intensely.” The spirit is working to draw us away from this great division. Amazing!

Personal Mediation:

Of coarse James was speaking to matters of the heart. But I can’t help but wonder what did “the world” mean to James in his culture. Was it easier to divide holy things from sinful things? Was it easy to call out the religious from the sincere?

I can’t help but question what God is speaking to me when I read these passages from my personal perspective. What are my motives in being involved in online social networks? What are my motives in watching movies? In shopping? Am I being a friend of the world by these actions?

In what ways have I been tainted by the world?

I guess the only way to really find out is to ask God to show me. To never loose sight of the significance of this concept.


Lord, I want bee connected to you in a way where you are honored by my prayer requests. I want to see every prayer asked answered. Show me how to be in this world but not of it. Don’t let me compromise the jealous spirit of God that lies in me. Draw me out of the world, I release you to in a new way.