Pride says that you’ve arrived in your place as an Apostle of Christ, conquering, convincing, trusting, right theology, right practice, worthy of judging the weak and stupid. While in sobriety all that is said is goo goo ga ga. Know your role. Know humility. Revere God, hate pride.

Benedict on Humility

“Brethren, the Holy Scripture crieth to us saying: “Every one that exalteth himself shall be humbled; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted” (Lk 14:11; 18:14). Since, therefore, it saith this, it showeth us that every exaltation is a kind of pride. The Prophet declareth that he guardeth himself against this, saying: “Lord, my heart is not puffed up; nor are my eyes haughty. Neither have I walked in great matters nor in wonderful things above me” (Ps 130[131]:1). What then? “If I was not humbly minded, but exalted my soul; as a child that is weaned is towards his mother so shalt Thou reward my soul” (Ps 130[131]:2).

Hence, brethren, if we wish to reach the greatest height of humility, and speedily to arrive at that heavenly exaltation to which ascent is made in the present life by humility, then, mounting by our actions, we must erect the ladder which appeared to Jacob in his dream, by means of which angels were shown to him ascending and descending (cf Gen 28:12). Without a doubt, we understand this ascending and descending to be nothing else but that we descend by pride and ascend by humility. The erected ladder, however, is our life in the present world, which, if the heart is humble, is by the Lord lifted up to heaven. For we say that our body and our soul are the two sides of this ladder; and into these sides the divine calling hath inserted various degrees of humility or discipline which we must mount.”

~St. Benedict – 

For years pride had me

pressing the pedal to the metal in the proverbial car that is my calling.

I now realize that steering and the others functions of driving are just as important.

I know how to use the gas pedal which is good.

Now to steer…




the gas!

Ego Trippin’

The ego has a way of self defining what we are capable of, who we are, and what we are willing to venture out and try. But, when God says “Go speak to this person or that person.” He does not consult our egos first, seeing if we are willing or able to accomplish such tasks.

He has bought us with a price and so we must do our best to kill the ego so that we might walk in the power and authority of God. Like Jesus said in reference to the coin  “Render to Caesar what is Caesar’s and to God what is God’s.(Matt. 22:21)”

We are His, not our own.

Me and My Pride

sentryMy worst enemy has the same name as me. He likes to be mentioned and recognized. I despise it. Every time some well intentioned friend sings his praises a proverbial axe chops away at the many months progress that had been made.

Pride is my worst enemy, I hate him. He makes my life a living hell. If I stay off of his shoulders and quit punching him in the face it’s only a matter of days before he shows up in a three piece suit to try and sing his gospel.

As of late I’ve recognized that one of the fruits of his labor is comparison to others. This my friends is the poisoned dart in the neck that slurs the speech and  stutters the step. That’s where his presence really hurts because it’s the culmination of occurrences that leads to an overarching weak me.

So I fight, I cuss, I run from any hint of pride. I hear my name pronounced in praise and he gets all puffed up, I on the other hand can’t wait to throw a crow-hopping haymaker to his chin. What a strange battle I have… not with the demonic or with the devil. Just with me. Within me.

What was that you were saying? I don’t know how to take a compliment? Oh, I know how to take it. Take it out to the woodshed.

Rant Ends Here. Thanks for listening.